I had decided on St. Lawrence pretty early on in the college decision process. SLU had the three most important things that I was searching for: a friendly atmosphere, a beautiful campus, and a neuroscience major. My plan was to go to St. Lawrence and then get my doctorate in neuroscience and finally do research on degenerative brain disorders. Now, that idea feels like a lifetime ago.
My first year here I was still on track. I took a normal course load for a neuroscience major: biology, chemistry, the First-Year Program, psychology, and statistics. I really enjoyed these classes and was looking forward to taking my first neuroscience course my sophomore year. Little did I know that it would not be what I expected.
I came to realize about half way through the semester that I wasn’t doing what I loved. I was so confused. How could I have enjoyed my first year of classes so much and then do a complete flip my second year? I thought maybe it was just because I was taking harder classes and that I would like it once I learned more. So, I continued in the spring semester and I tried so hard to love it, but I just didn’t. I knew at this point that I couldn’t be a neuroscience major anymore, and that was scary. My career plan was now empty and I, for the first time in my life, had no idea what I wanted to do.
I decided to go back and think about what made me love my classes so much during my first year. I realized that it wasn’t biology or chemistry, but was psychology and statistics that I had enjoyed so much. I decided that I would take more of those classes and see what happened. What happened was that I loved learning again! I am now a psychology major and a statistics minor. I still don’t know exactly what I am going to do after I graduate and I’m finally okay with that. I have so many ideas of things that I could do, all of which make me excited for the future. Changing majors was scary and hard, but it was the best thing that I did.